I dont post on this much but I felt like I needed to tonight.

Everyone learns life lessons and most of the time they’re just little things that seem like they mean the world at the time, breaking up with your partner or falling out with friends. I’ve had to deal with all that before and thought that it helped me mature alot but at the end of the day those problems you deal with at school and college are all in a little bubble and rarely affect your life as a whole.

Recently I’ve just been hit in the face majorly with real life and I won’t lie it hurt. I thought I’d never be one of those people but here I am just sat with this weight hanging over my head driving me into the ground and it’s something I never want to deal with again, especially on a bigger scale.

It’s gonna be a hard few months but if this has taught me anything it’s that I love my friends and having them there to support you and have your back can make life so much easier. It’s also made me realise just how much I love and adore my girlfriend and no matter what shit I have to deal with she loves me too and will be there for me. Honestly she means more to me than anything else in this world and I just want her there to deal with real life and to learn and grow together. I want her to be there with me through everything and I just hope that i get a chance to do for her what she has for me. If you’re reading this, you’re perfect and I couldn’t ask for anything more.

This has been really long and I don’t open myself up to anyone like this anymore really and I’m starting to realise how much that can affect you. Just thankyou to everyone in my life man, couldn’t face it all without you guys.

to know a life of pain and strife

too many years spent under the iceeeee